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Yesterday I suffered a massive blow to my quest for publication.
I'm still reeling from it all and trying to process
what it means for me in the long-term.

More than once the thought has entered my mind that I should give up,
cry "Uncle!"
Take up something new.

But as I sat on my patio this morning,
in a stunned kind of mourning,
I saw an ant dragging an equally large ant across the paver stones.

WARNING:  Avert your gaze if you do not like ants!

                                                                          © 2010 Tracy Abell

Then the ant started up the vertical wall of my step,
and my first thought was, "Wow.  That's some strength."
My second thought was, "Hey, if a tiny ant can summon all that inner fortitude, so can I."

So, while I'm still feeling shaky and unsure,
I'm also feeling that glimmer of resolve that's carried me this far.
I'm counting on The Mighty Ant to remind me of my capabilities.

I will prevail.


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Jun. 5th, 2010 02:37 pm (UTC)
of course you will PREVAIL!! You are so much mightier than that little ant!!

"No matter how impossible everything may seem, never underestimate the power of a dream."

P O W E R!!!!!!!!
Jun. 7th, 2010 12:28 pm (UTC)
Thank you for leaping in and sharing your strength with me, Laura. Check out my latest post for an additional thank-you.
Jun. 5th, 2010 03:12 pm (UTC)
Oof, it must have been some blow! I'm so sorry. but as the official self-assigned Tracy World egg basket holder, I know you'll prevail. And good for you for recognizing yourself as the red ant and not the other one.
Jun. 7th, 2010 12:28 pm (UTC)
HA! It didn't occur to me that I might be the other ant. THAT makes me very happy!
Jun. 5th, 2010 03:45 pm (UTC)
In this game, tenacity is as important as talent. If you hang in there, you will prevail.
Jun. 7th, 2010 12:29 pm (UTC)
Tenacity be my middle name, I guess. Thanks, April.
Jun. 5th, 2010 04:05 pm (UTC)
Crap, Tracy. I'm sorry something bad happened. Email me if you want to talk it over. dot crane g mail

Also, I don't know if you saw it, but I have some good news, which I mention because you know how much I've been through, so if me hanging in there can lead to good news, it can for you as well.
Jun. 7th, 2010 12:29 pm (UTC)
Still doing the happy dance for you, Dot. Here's to hanging in there!
Jun. 5th, 2010 05:11 pm (UTC)
Oh, Crap! Sorry about that first comment, I was making a joke about the ant before I read the entire post. Dang it!

I don't know what happened to you, but I KNOW you can move beyond it... might take a little time, but you, of all the bloggers I know, are pretty amazing!

If there's anything I can do to help, say the word!
Jun. 7th, 2010 12:30 pm (UTC)
Thanks so much, Brian, for the kind words. I'm hanging in there and that's in large part due to this amazing community. I appreciate your support.
Jun. 5th, 2010 05:13 pm (UTC)
You're one tremendously talented ant, Tracy, and a mighty fine photographer, too. [Insert giant Teletubby hug here.]
Jun. 7th, 2010 12:31 pm (UTC)
Teletubby hugs! Can I be LaLa? When the kids were little, I was LaLa. Zippy was Dipsy (the boys picked for him..HA)

Thank you so much, Laurie, for standing alongside me in all this. You're the best.
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Jun. 5th, 2010 06:15 pm (UTC)
The choice for growth: to Prevail.
In the end, you write because you love to write.
You are doing what you love.
Lucky girl.
Everything else is ego.
Celebrate the shaky feeling.
You are another step toward
ego letting go.
Jun. 7th, 2010 12:32 pm (UTC)
Re: Embrace
Yes, that's the one constant in all this: I love to write. And I will continue to write. Thanks, Anonymous.
Jun. 5th, 2010 07:12 pm (UTC)
I am so sorry about the massive blow.
And so glad you saw the ant. Cheers to you both. Our faith isn't shaken in you.
Jun. 7th, 2010 12:33 pm (UTC)
You were the only one I wasn't worried about when I posted that ant photo, Jeannine. Hope you know what an honor that is. :)

Thanks so much for the words of support. I feel as if I'm going to find my way out of all this.
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Jun. 5th, 2010 08:16 pm (UTC)
:( However, I agree that you will prevail -- you have more determination than almost anyone I know!
Jun. 7th, 2010 12:34 pm (UTC)
Wow, Robin. That means a lot to me, and I'm going to work hard to prove you right. Thank you.
Jun. 6th, 2010 12:25 am (UTC)
OH Tracy, first off, big hugs. (I first typed bug hugs...haha)

I'm so sorry you got dealt such a blow but you get major gold stars in my book for turning your mind around so quickly. Here's to better days ahead.
Jun. 7th, 2010 12:35 pm (UTC)
I accept all hugs, even bug hugs. :)

I did turn my mind around pretty quickly but it's made a few turns since then. Mostly, I'm looking forward to better days ahead. And I really appreciate you being here for me as I figure it out. Thank you, Susan.
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Jun. 7th, 2010 12:36 pm (UTC)
Ah, Melodye. How can I give up when I have a friend such as you cheering me along? Your faith if me renews my own faith. Gosh darn it, I will Prevail!
Jun. 6th, 2010 02:34 am (UTC)

Obviously I have no idea what the blow was. If if came from a critiquer, it is one person. If it came from an agent, it is one person. I believe Walt Disney's art teacher told him he would never suceed. Ha! We can't let nay sayers stand in our way. Of course this might not even be related to the issue. But if it is, push forward. Even if it is somethign else, push forward. The only difference between the published writer and the unpublished writer is one persevered. Be the ant. Be the ant.
Jun. 7th, 2010 12:39 pm (UTC)
I am the ant. I am the ant. (Not to be confused with "I am the walrus. I am the walrus."...and this will only be funny to you if you've seen The Big Lebowski). But you are right, Tracy, about the perseverance. I am mighty and I will push on.

Thanks so much for the support, Tracy. It's helping me get through.
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Jun. 6th, 2010 07:52 am (UTC)
So sorry! But that fact that you're pushing yourself forward is exactly the reason you WILL prevail! Good luck!
Jun. 7th, 2010 12:39 pm (UTC)
Thank you, Anna. Hard-headed me will keep on pushing forward. Your kind words of support make it a little easier.
Jun. 6th, 2010 11:27 am (UTC)
I'm so sorry to hear about the blow, Tracy. This path can be so hard. But keep the faith. You're so close right now.
Jun. 7th, 2010 12:40 pm (UTC)
The path is mighty hard, Carolyn. I got your email and will write more. But I'm glad you're alongside me as we navigate this crazy trip.
Jun. 6th, 2010 11:35 am (UTC)
I hope the inner strength the ants gave you helps turn things around. You've given me an extra shot of fortitude right when I needed it.
Jun. 7th, 2010 12:41 pm (UTC)
I'm so glad my post and the ant gave you that extra shot of fortitude! Whatever you're facing right now, know I'm sending my support and faith your way. You can do it! We can do it!
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